Trust

Today, I'm taking some time to look back over the past year and what the Lord has brought me through.  I have a thankful heart. The journey was hard.  But He proved Himself faithful.  Again.  And my heart is full.  Here is what I wrote a year ago...still fitting in every season...and for different reasons, still very relevant today.

Did you ever just have one of those days?

You know, the kind where the wind gets knocked out of your sails, your GPS loses its connection and you're left wondering how you ended up where you are let alone figuring out how to get to where you're going?   Today has been one of those days.  And yet, in these moments, I have the calm assurance that there is an unseen hand orchestrating every movement, every twist and turn of this roller coaster ride of life.  In each season, on the mountaintop and in the valleys, He has a lesson for me to learn.  A lesson that draws me closer to His side.  A lesson that grows me up in Him.  A lesson of His faithfulness.  And his knowledge of things I cant yet see.  Sometimes he whispers it gently in my ear.  Sometimes He has to pound me over the head with a hammer to get His point across. Other times He seems silent - and yet..I can sense His arms around me...carrying me, sheltering me, shielding me, protecting me..then helping me fly - when He knows I'm ready.  But in every season, whether hes whispering, shouting, or shaking His head that I didn't get it..again...He's proven Himself faithful.  Trustworthy.

And so, I will TRUST that just as He promises (Jer 29:11-13)  He already knows the way.  He already made the plan.  And He knows how today fits into the journey He planned out for me before the foundations of the Earth.
So what does TRUST really mean?

trust
1. reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.
2. confident expectation of something; hope.

—Synonyms
1. certainty, belief, faith. Trust, assurance, confidence  imply a feeling of security. Trust  implies instinctive unquestioning belief in and reliance upon something: to have trust in one's parents. Confidence  implies conscious trust because of good reasons, definite evidence, or past experience: to have confidence in the outcome of events. Assurance  implies absolute confidence and certainty: to feel an assurance of victory

Goin way back, I got some old school Twila Paris running through my mind tonite:

Do I Trust You?

Sometimes my little heart can't understand
What's in Your will, what's in Your plan.
So many times I'm tempted to ask You why,
But I can never forget it for long.
Lord, what You do could not be wrong.
So I believe You, even when I must cry.

Do I trust You, Lord?
Does the river flow?
Do I trust You, Lord?
Does the north wind blow?
You can see my heart,
You can read my mind,
And You got to know
That I would rather die
Than to lose my faith
In the One I love.
Do I trust You, Lord?
Do I trust You?

I know the answers, I've given them all.
But suddenly now, I feel so small.
Shaken down to the cavity in my soul.
I know the doctrine and theology,
But right now they don't mean much to me.
This time there's only one thing I've got to know.

Do I trust You, Lord?
Does the robin sing?
Do I trust You, Lord?
Does it rain in spring?
You can see my heart,
You can read my mind,
And You got to know
That I would rather die
Than to lose my faith
In the One I love.
Do I trust You, Lord?
Do I trust You?

I will trust You, Lord, when I don't know why.
I will trust You, Lord, till the day I die.
I will trust You, Lord, when I'm blind with pain!
You were God before, and You'll never change.
I will trust You.
I will trust You.
I will trust You, Lord.
I will trust You.